Always to Blame...

I'm always the one to blame when things go wrong.
I'm always the one at fault at home when things go bad
I'm the one that screws up.
I'm the one that destroys things... and I don't mean to.
I'm so hurt.
Confused.
I don't know what to do or say.
You tell me later that it's not my fault, but in the heat of the moment
it's always say it's my fault...

Sometimes I'm a child other times I'm an adult.
But I'm terrified even though you ask me to be strong.
It's my fault for not knowing how to fix this.
It's my fault, I don't know why or how... but if you blame me.
If you say it's my fault, then I'll accept it...
Because as parents you've never lied to me.

Just.. don't make me choose where I want my life to be.
Don't make me choose, because I love you both.


This next excerpt is for you...just for you... even though I know you'll never see it or read it...

When we love,we lie
When we talk,we hide
Maybe I'm searching blind
I'm worn out,
Confused
What are we to you?
What are we doing?
What are we doing?

What about us?
What about love?
What about saying
That we'll never give up?
Don't wanna blame ya
But we're in danger


Till next time.

Love.
D.C.