Republishing an old post

 

Hi Readers!

I came across this old post I wrote in 2009.

I seems to explain what has been going through my head and what I've noticed that has gone through other peoples mind…

 

 

Deeper words within

No spell-check..
no thinking twice or re-writing in this note.. just words from the heart. Just the hidden words within.
Funny, isn't it? How the deepest most poetic and meaningful words come from the darkest corner of our soul.
Funny, that when your dreams are so close that you could touch them someone cuts the string in that dream and you fall into a bliss.
Strange that those who you were there for, aren't there at all for you.
Strange that those you never thought twice about, are the ones that care the most and look to carry your burden... but you´re too proud to let anyone else carry that burden which is rightfully yours. Or maybe you just know that what you carry, no one else could understand..
There is an eerie silence that bothers you. An unmoving silence that disturbs you. A darkness that holds the unimaginable. Something so deep that it resides in the deepest part of your mind.
Funny how the words you search for don't seem right.
Funny how your thoughts are eating your at night.
Strange that you look in the mirror and don´t recognize who you see.
Strange that you´re not sure this is who you want to be.
Imagine... all the answers you search for are in that hidden deep dark part of your mind. The answers that you will not face because you know they hold the truth.
The truth of your life.
The truth of who you gave your life to.
The truth of who you thought shared your life with you
The truth that trust has been shattered..
The truth that in that hidden dark part of your mind you see yourself shriveled up in a corner alone.
But then again, why should you hurt and die inside, and pay the blood price for something someone else did?
Why should you bleed for them... if they don´t care.

 

 

DC.

 

I wrote this at time when I was heartbroken and confused about the confidence I lacked. This helped me explain myself.

Hopefully it will help you guys a bit.

love

Desirae Valdespino

(yes, i will continue to sign with my married name)