I almost told you today

Today, I almost told you how I felt about you. Today I almost told you how much I love you. How I've been in love with you for the past 4/5 years.
I've had crushes, I've dated other people, but in the end I always come back to loving you. You are the person I adore. You are the person who seems perfect to me. I love how I can be myself with you and you like me just like that.
Today I almost told you that I love you, because I know you don't know that's the way I feel about you.
Normally we are alone whenever we get together to talk. But today there was someone else in the room. Not another woman, just another friend.
I wish I had the power to either read your mind or look into the future.
If I could read your mind, I would know if you love me as a friend or something more.
If I could look into the future, I would find out what would happen if I told you how you light up my day with a simple smile. I would find out what would happen if I kissed you.

I'd rather read your mind and find out I'm just a friend to you, than not know what we are.
I'd rather look into the future and see you push me away or reject me, than imagine that each smile you give me is more than what it is.

"I want to hold you so hear me out, I want to show you what love's all about" (Hungry Eyes)


If I had been given to chance today to tell you what you mean to me, I would say:
Thank you for encouraging me to follow my dream of writing and telling me that you like what I write.
Thank you for believing in me and telling me that I am smart. (or at least making me feel smart)
Thank you for listening to me when I don't have much to say.
Thank you for smiling everything we see each other. Thank you for making me feel appreciated.
Thank you for ALL the advice you give me. (big or small advice, it was always helpful)
Thank you for caring.

I love the way you look at me and make me feel like I'm walking on air.
I love your laugh, it could lighten up my whole day. (even just the memory of your laugh makes me laugh.)
I love your eyes, I love the way you see the world through them. I love that you share that with me.
I love your hugs. Even though there have been few, your hug feels sincere and safe.
I love how you have the best humor at the smallest things.
I love how smart you are, yet instead of showing it off, you Share it with everyone.
I love how humble you are when in reality an amazing person.
I love how you make each day seem like it's worth it.


I almost told you all this today. I always told you how much you rock my world. I almost told you about the biggest crush that I've had on you for years. I almost told you that I'd wait forever for you to love me back.

Maybe someday you'll find out. Maybe not.
I just hope you do know, that I care for you a lot and I always will.

Here's a song, that sums up what's in my heart; "Hungry Eyes".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6oKUTOLSeMM


Till Next time.
Love
D.C.





I've been meaning to tell you
I've got this feelin' that won't subside
I look at you and I fantasize
Darlin' tonight
Now I've got you in my sights

With these hungry eyes
One look at you and I can't disguise
I've got hungry eyes
I feel the magic between you and I

I want to hold you so hear me out
I want to show you what love's all about
Darlin' tonight
Now I've got you in my sights

With these hungry eyes
One look at you and I can't disguise
I've got hungry eyes
I feel the magic between you and I

Now I've got you in my sights
With these hungry eyes
Now did I take you by surprise
I need you to see
This love was meant to be