WEDDING DAY!!

Dear Blog,

Today was my wedding. I am at the hotel right now. I should get some sleep because Gerry and I have an early flight to Belgium tomorrow. But I wanted to update you on our wedding!

We come back from our Honeymoon on the 24th. We will spend Christmas Morning with my parents and then go visit Gerry’s parents.

I won’t update the blog during the week of my honeymoon! Sorry! But this is my special break and time with my darling new husband! lol.



Gerard called me last night to talk a little. He was very nervous about today. I guess he thought I would get cold feet. But it didn’t happen… It was nice hearing his voice before I fell asleep.

I got up around 9:00am. I am not sure why I’m so exhausted. Most brides must be restless and excited for their wedding day. I guess I just knew everything would fall into place. I had breakfast with my parents and then got dressed in my favorite green button blouse and blue jeans. My mom had made me a hair and makeup appointment at a local hair saloon at 3:00pm. The mass isn’t until 7:00. But she figured that having a good 4 hours would be enough time to get my hair and makeup done. I chose a simple hair style. Half of my hair was in a bun and the other half was curled/wavy. It was a nice change to see my hair so beautifully done, compared to the normal-dead-straight-hair look i have everyday. I also wore the sparkle tiara that my grandmother bought me for my Sweet Sixteen birthday.

I think my makeup was very simple as well. The make-up ‘wonder-woman’ put blue and pink eye shadow on my eye. It was so pretty. She blended the colors in such a way that my eyes looked wintery..almost frosted. It didn’t look theatrical, instead it looked very natural. I feel in love with the look. I’d love to be able to recreate it. It felt very weird wearing my contact lenses today instead of my glasses. I promised to practice wearing contact lenses a week before the wedding, but I kept forgetting. So I started my wedding day, with the awkward feeling that something was missing on my face…

Getting my hair and makeup done took longer that I thought, I was done by 5:00. My mom and I drove home. I was greeted with by my Maid of Honor and a couple other gal friends. They helped me into my wedding dress and kept me animated. The photographer arrived close to 6:00 and began taking pictures of me in my dress. We took pictures around the house and posing with my parents. My father surprised me with a white stretch limousine outside out house to take me to the church. I almost started crying. I didn’t expect that. With all the expenses from the wedding, I didn’t even consider renting a ride to the wedding. I figured we would just go in the family car. It was a sweet surprise.

My parents and Maid of honor rode in the limo with me. It smelled new and inside the limo were 2 white roses and a note from Gerry.

“Do you have plans later?”

I laughed at his silly message. It made me feel a little less nervous. My dad told me that last night at the Rehearsal, Gerry asked him to place the roses and note in the limo for me. He knew I’d be feeling very nervous as the hours to the wedding approached.

On the way to the church I talked with my best friend/maid of honor Penelope. She got engaged two weeks ago and I was thrilled for her. We talked about how she would be at her wedding and how I’d be the one running around making sure everything was perfect. It had been our childhood dream to get married on the same day, or simple get married within a week of each other. But as we grew older, we understood that it was best that each one had her own special today.

Today was my day.

Something old: my tiara

Something new: my wedding dress

Something borrowed: I wore a snowflake necklace that my grandmother owns.

Something blue: My garter. lol

I felt like we got to the church very fast and the time flew by even faster. Before I realized it, my friend was handing me my bouquet of flowers (white roses, forget-me-nots and… darn! I have to double check with my mother. She did my bouquet! All I know is that it was beautiful!!) and my dad was holding my arm and walking me down the aisle.

I felt beautiful as I walked towards the man that was going to be my husband. Gerard looked handsome as ever in his tuxedo. He wore the white tie I’d suggested. Bryce, his best man, stood next to him and looked equally as handsome. My dad let me to Gerry and lifted my veil to kiss me on the cheek. He looked so happy as well. I am going to burn that image into my head forever. Gerard took my hand and led me to the seats in front of the alter. I forgot there was a little step before the alter and as I walked up with Gerard I tripped. I almost fell down, but Gerry was quick enough to react and catch me in mid air. (I can’t wait to see wedding video and see how that looked. lol)

Mass went by fast. I thought it would go by slow, but staring into Gerard’s eyes and see how proud our parents were, I lost track of time. We both wrote our own wedding vows. Gerry’s vows brought tears to my eyes, (I asked him write it down so I can add it to the wedding scrap book.) I will add my wedding vows as well. When I have them written down, I will add them here.

“I now pronounce you man and wife. You may now kiss the bride.”

Gerry leaned in and kissed me slowly, softly and lovingly. I couldn’t stop smiling. I was so happy and I could tell Gerry was happy as well. We walked back down the aisle and stood at the door greeting people. The photographer and video man had us smiling and taking pictures with family members and friends in the church. We reenacted a couple of moments, and then got in the limo and headed to the reception.

In the limo Gerry told me he thought I looked beautiful. For a moment it all felt very real. Gerry was in love with me. He was marrying me. He loved me. He loved me in the way that, a man who wants to spend the rest of his life with someone, loves a woman. And for a moment that was enough. I love him and he loves me in the purest way ever. It’s not romantic, but it’s honest. I gave him a quick kiss on the lips and then hinted where the garter was on my leg. It was embarrassing thinking that everyone was going to look at us and watch him take the garter. lol. I wanted him to try and find it fast.





I’d love to write more about the wedding, but I have to go to sleep now. I have to get up early tomorrow so we can catch our flight to Europe! I will update later! Or after the 25th! I am taking 10 days off from blog, cause it’s my HONEYMOON!! :D

XOXO

Desirae

aka

Mrs. Valdespino <3

Wedding TOMORROW!!—1 Day Till Wedding

 

Dear Blog

I’m getting married tomorrow.

 

 

I am giddy with excitement and nauseas from nerves.

More updates later.

 

Till next time

 

Desirae

School Is Over--- 12 Days Till Wedding

 

Dear Blog

Yesterday was my graduation. My thesis was approved. I didn’t get an excellence on it. (much like my other classmates.) But I did get a lot of approving nods from my teachers and colleagues. I passed. I am done with school. I am happy for that. I don’t think I could have asked for more.

It is late as I write this. I will update it soon. I promise.

For now, I’m going to enjoy the sweet air of freedom and no more worries about late night study-sessions or stressing over homework.

I’ll stress soon enough about getting a new job.

 

XOXO

Desirae

Is it worth it?—15 Days Till Wedding

 

I have slept very little hours these past two days

 

I'm going to bed now.

 

Alone...thinking and waiting for no one…

 

The wedding is days away, and maybe it’s the final pressure that is killing us.

We had a big fight and I’m starting to realize that maybe I will end up being the only one trying to hold the marriage together.

 

I’ll write more later.

XOXO

Desirae

 

ps. I know I owe you updates! They are coming soon! I’ve read your messages. My computer had to be reset, along with the old blog entries. I also had to re-edit some entries because I got flagged. lol

Please be patient! :)

“I’ll Always Love You” Take II—21 Days Till Wedding

 

Dear Blog,

So, as I mentioned in the last entry, Gerard and Bryce got me a new engagement ring. I still feel horrible for losing the first ring. I hear about brides losing their engagement rings and thinking they were just scatter-brains. But now, in their defense, it’s hard to always keep track that ring!!

I mean, I remember putting it on in the morning and I don’t remember ever taking it off! I didn’t notice it was gone until the evening.

:(   sad face.

 

The story about the new ring is pretty cute. I was walking in the mall with Bryce after school. We stopped by a wrist-watch store so he could get this watch fixed. Across the street from the Watch Store is a Jewelry store. Gerard and I already have our wedding rings (or wedding bands) picked out, but I figured it would be proper that Bryce get a matching ring as well. He, after all,  will be living with us on and off during the years. We decided to see what ring designs they had. While we were looking around, Bryce showed me a beautiful engagement ring. It had 2 little diamonds on the side and a “big” diamond in the middle. It was breath taking!!

“Do you like it?” Bryce asked.

“I think it’s beautiful. But I’m not looking for an engagement ring. I feel horrible for loosing the one Gerard gave me.” I answered.

“Well, that’s true. If we got you a new ring, you might lose it again.” Bryce said. I knew he was joking, but it still stung. I didn’t think about the ring again, but I didn’t see the last of it.

That night at Bryce and Gerard took me out to dinner. Nothing fancy, a regular burger/salad place. It was a very chilly night, Gerard was nice enough to lend me his coat so I could keep warm.

“Hey, Rae. Could you hand me my cigarettes? The box is in the pocket inside my coat.”

“Sure.”

I put my in the pocket of his coat, which I was wearing, but instead of putting out what I thought was his cigarettes, I ended up pulling out a little velvet black box. I stared at it for a couple seconds shocked and afraid to know what was inside it.

“What is this?” I asked.

“Open it Desirae” Bryce said encouraging me.

“No…”

“Just open it love. I promise it won’t bite” Gerard said guiding my hand to open the box.

I opened it very slowing…inside was the ring that Bryce and I had seen at the store earlier.

“Oh my gosh! You guys!” I said as  I tried handing them back the box. “I can’t accept this! It’s too much!”

“No, it’s not too much.” Bryce took the box and handed it to Gerard. “It’s not exactly what you think. It’s not a diamond. It’s a cubic zirconia. It’s something a bit more special. In the dark, the middle stone looks white, like a diamond. In the sunlight, the middle stones turns a purple color and on hazy days or inside places the stone turns a pink color. Three colors, representing a the future family of all three of us together.”

Gerard pulled the ring out of the box, held it up to me so I could see it and then placed it on my finger. I started crying. Once again, he had engraved on the inside of the ring “I will always love you.”  That had become our phrase. Our promise to one another… an honest love.

Flashback to engagement day:

He pulled it out of the box and handed it to me. As I looked at it, I saw something engraved around it. “I’ll always love you.”
“You had it engraved?” I exclaimed. He nodded, smiled as he put the ring on my finger and kissed me.

End of flashback.

 

Gerard held my hand and hugged me as  I thanked him and Bryce over and over for such  a beautiful detail.

I am taking such good care of this ring. I am enjoying seeing the color change, and with each change, I think of them. I don’t deserve this much love from two men. But for some reason they love me and I know I couldn’t love them anymore.

 

Till next time.

XOXO

Desirae

New ring--- 22 Days Till Wedding

Gerry and Bryce were sweet enough to give me a new ring. I still feel horrible for losing it.

 

more updates coming soon!

XOXO

Desirae

Our House--- 30 Days Till Wedding

Dear Blog

Great news!!!

Our home!

Our house!

The house Gerard and I have worked to buy and pay off is FINALLY ours!!!

The house is paid off!! We have a home! We are just one month away from getting married, but now we have a house to go home to!!

This great news! I can’t wait to share it will the family and friends!

CELEBRATING TONIGHT!!!

XOXO

Desirae

UPDATED:

Dear Blog

Today is a very happy day that Gerard and I. The final paperwork for our house has gone through.


(funny note: My computer has Speech Recognition, So I was dictating this entry, and I said “The final paperwork for our house has gone through.” and the computer wrote “The final paperwork for hell has gone through.”

I laughed my head off.. I hope it’s not a sign…)


We have officially finished paying off our new house. I’m so excited to get started on furnishing it. I soon as the bank and real estate guy called me. I called Gerard and he was very excited as well. I invited Bryce and him over to the house tonight so we can open a bottle of champagne to celebrate.

I think what we’re most proud about the fact that this house was bought by just Gerard and I. Our parents had offered to help with the payment, but we made it clear that we wanted this to be our house.

Most newlywed couples usually buy an apartment, than a house and then eventually move to live into a bigger house when children come around.

However, Gerard and I are not sure when “we’ll have children”, so we decided to go straight into buying a new house. As I mentioned before this house is in a secure location and has very few neighbors around. So we have the privacy we would need in case Bryce should ever decide to move in with us for more than just a couple days.

On a day when there isn’t much traffic, the house is just about 30 minutes away from my parents and about 40 minutes-to-an-hour away from Gerard’s mother’s house.

When my parents got married my grandparents on my father’s side, bought them their house. The house they bought them was right next door to their own house which meant the family was always close and always… In each other’s business.

My dad, tried to follow the family tradition, and offered to buy us our first house but I knew that he would get something that was too close to their own house. (and even if he did buy a house that was far way, I didn’t want the feeling that the house Gerard and I lived in was my father’s house).

I made it very clear my parents that I wanted this house to be just Gerard and my house. And I also told them this is it was the first time that I would live far away from home, I wanted my privacy. In twenty three years I’d never traveled anywhere beyond a couple of miles away from my own house. To actually have my own house with Gerard far away from family and most friends is something that I really want. Gerard had been traveling the world since he was 16 years old, he has gone to Europe, Spain, etc.

This time I was going to be in my own house, with Gerard, and even though I love my parents, I want the independents I know I should have tried to have gained while back.


So we have our house. We have a house to come back to after the honeymoon!!

This week we will probably move in all the boxes of things that we have. I have most of my items packed (some things will stay at my parents house until we have settled in better)

I am guessing that after the honeymoon we will really start unpacking boxes and setting up the house. (I’ll probably get stuck unpacking everything while Gerry is at work… my job starts later.)


Anyway, it’s later! I’ll update later!

XOXO

Desirae