I'm always the one to blame when things go wrong.
I'm always the one at fault at home when things go bad
I'm the one that screws up.
I'm the one that destroys things... and I don't mean to.
I'm so hurt.
Confused.
I don't know what to do or say.
You tell me later that it's not my fault, but in the heat of the moment
it's always say it's my fault...
Sometimes I'm a child other times I'm an adult.
But I'm terrified even though you ask me to be strong.
It's my fault for not knowing how to fix this.
It's my fault, I don't know why or how... but if you blame me.
If you say it's my fault, then I'll accept it...
Because as parents you've never lied to me.
Just.. don't make me choose where I want my life to be.
Don't make me choose, because I love you both.
This next excerpt is for you...just for you... even though I know you'll never see it or read it...
When we love,we lie
When we talk,we hide
Maybe I'm searching blind
I'm worn out,
Confused
What are we to you?
What are we doing?
What are we doing?
What about us?
What about love?
What about saying
That we'll never give up?
Don't wanna blame ya
But we're in danger
Till next time.
Love.
D.C.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Exchange Program
I might go on an exchange program and I am very excited, but I’m also very nervous of what may happen. If i don’t get accepted, then I’ll definitely be heartbroken.
I really want this. I really want to go. I want to get of here!!!
I’ve gotten at least half of the paperwork done with and over.
Now, it’s that hardest part… the waiting.
Golly… the waiting…
Horror…
tick, tock, tick, tock…
Time…
aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!
till next time!
Love.
D.C.
Monday, October 26, 2009
If You Ask Me To...
Why can't I stop loving you??
This is for you...this song is for you. Because you make my heartbeat every time I see you and you make my heart break every time you run to someone else arms.
Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in
But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to
Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free
(But if you asked me to...)
Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby
If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to...
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
This is for you...this song is for you. Because you make my heartbeat every time I see you and you make my heart break every time you run to someone else arms.
Used to be that I believed in something
Used to be that I believed in love
It's been a long time since I've had that feeling
I could love someone
I could trust someone
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again darlin'
I said I'd never let nobody in
But if you asked me to
I just might change my mind
And let you in my life forever
If you asked me to
I just might give my heart
And stay here in your arms forever
If you asked me to
If you asked me to
Somehow ever since I've been around you
Can't go back to being on my own
Can't help feeling darling since I've found you
That I've found my home
That I'm finally home
I said I'd never let nobody get too close to me darling
I said I needed, needed to be free
(But if you asked me to...)
Asked me to, I will give my world to you baby
I need you now
Ask me to and I'll do anything for you baby, for you baby
If you asked me to
I'd let you in my life forever
If you asked me to...
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Rock'n Roll Me!!!
haha
ok, maybe not Rock'n Roll.. but this weekend, I've been feeling very "Metalic"...
Just listen to this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGnAzkh9kn0
Path- by Apocalitipica.
Amazing sound!!!
I kind of love the "remix" version of that song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0_aZXI-3uY&feature=related
Path- Apocalyptica and Sandra Nasic.
Anyway :P
Till next time
love
D.C.
ok, maybe not Rock'n Roll.. but this weekend, I've been feeling very "Metalic"...
Just listen to this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGnAzkh9kn0
Path- by Apocalitipica.
Amazing sound!!!
I kind of love the "remix" version of that song..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0_aZXI-3uY&feature=related
Path- Apocalyptica and Sandra Nasic.
Anyway :P
Till next time
love
D.C.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Phrase of the day..
Through the good times. Through the bad times. When a Man Loves a Woman: it's for all times.
...
Wow... It's amazing how a simple phrase like that can hold so much meaning. It's amazing how this phrase is, or rather, should be true.
"Through the good times. Through the bad times. When One Person Loves Another Person: It's for all Times."
I've seen this phrase at work with one couple. One of my friends. They love eachother through all good and all bad. It's amazing to see it. To see the love they have in each others eyes.
It's the kind of love people wait a lifetime to see or feel.
It's the kind of love people would kill for.
It's true love.
Love me without Fear
Trust me without Questioning
Need me without Demanding
Want me without Restrictions
Accept me without Change
Desire me without Inhibitions
Because with this kind of love
It will Never Fly Away...
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
...
Wow... It's amazing how a simple phrase like that can hold so much meaning. It's amazing how this phrase is, or rather, should be true.
"Through the good times. Through the bad times. When One Person Loves Another Person: It's for all Times."
I've seen this phrase at work with one couple. One of my friends. They love eachother through all good and all bad. It's amazing to see it. To see the love they have in each others eyes.
It's the kind of love people wait a lifetime to see or feel.
It's the kind of love people would kill for.
It's true love.
Love me without Fear
Trust me without Questioning
Need me without Demanding
Want me without Restrictions
Accept me without Change
Desire me without Inhibitions
Because with this kind of love
It will Never Fly Away...
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Thought of the day....
John Barrowman is hot.
H-O-T!
Too bad he is gay... haha.. But I love his songs. Especially "What About Us".
The lyrics are amazing...
"We know what we need....Separately"
"We fight till we cry"
"When we Love, We Lie
When we Talk, We Hide"...
"I'm worn out
Confused.
What are we to do?
What are we doing?"
Wow.. Now, I'm the kind of girl that really enjoys and love small phrases like those. I mean.. you can get so much out of them. These phrases can tell so much. They are powerful.
A family member once told them that there was no other way to make statements than "Strong deep ones". There is no other way to go than deep.
People remember catchy and deep phrases.
My thoughts for today?
Live Now, Love Now, Laugh Now. Give it your all everyday.
What about you? What about your love? Have you discussed that today?
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
H-O-T!
Too bad he is gay... haha.. But I love his songs. Especially "What About Us".
The lyrics are amazing...
"We know what we need....Separately"
"We fight till we cry"
"When we Love, We Lie
When we Talk, We Hide"...
"I'm worn out
Confused.
What are we to do?
What are we doing?"
Wow.. Now, I'm the kind of girl that really enjoys and love small phrases like those. I mean.. you can get so much out of them. These phrases can tell so much. They are powerful.
A family member once told them that there was no other way to make statements than "Strong deep ones". There is no other way to go than deep.
People remember catchy and deep phrases.
My thoughts for today?
Live Now, Love Now, Laugh Now. Give it your all everyday.
What about you? What about your love? Have you discussed that today?
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
Friday, October 16, 2009
My heart in Unchained Melody
Ok.. I'll admit it. I am a hopeless romantic. But unchain melody just breaks my heart.
I love red roses. I love secrets love notes.
But certain love songs just break my heart and make me cry. haha
Unchained Melody does this...I could just ball my eyes out. It's not just the lyrics (I'll be coming home wait for me, love me).. but the rhythm as well.
I love being the best friend that people can tell their love life too. Sometimes people say that I seem to know just what to say for a broken heart...
Perhaps, because I'm in the friendship side. Which is fun sometimes! I mean, no commitment! Just hang out without doubting "Does he like me?" Do I look nice? Did i say the right thing? Was that a turn on or a turn off? etc...
I think different parts of my life can be told or related to in songs...melodies. Melodies, piano songs without any lyrics can say so much more than what the heart can understand.
Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger for your touch,
Alone. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
To the open arms of the sea.
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me,
I'll be coming home, wait for me.
Am I thinking of someone special on this Friday night? Yes.. perhaps.. I'm sitting in the dark with a flashlight. It's raining outside. It's 9:30pm Friday night. My parents are in bed sleeping and snoring. And I am here in the dark writing on my blog. Writing my thoughts. Listening to sappy love songs. Wishing instead that I was out dancing the night away. Listening to music so loud that I can't even hear my thoughts. Making a fool of myself on the dance floor.
But I'm here...in bed, being told to go to sleep at 9:40pm on a Friday night after a stressful week. I'm listening to Unchained Melody imagining that someone is dedicating it to me.
Imagining that any moment now a friend or someone might pick up the phone and call my celphone and say "I just wanted to hear your voice. Let's talk about everything and nothing at all."
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
I love red roses. I love secrets love notes.
But certain love songs just break my heart and make me cry. haha
Unchained Melody does this...I could just ball my eyes out. It's not just the lyrics (I'll be coming home wait for me, love me).. but the rhythm as well.
I love being the best friend that people can tell their love life too. Sometimes people say that I seem to know just what to say for a broken heart...
Perhaps, because I'm in the friendship side. Which is fun sometimes! I mean, no commitment! Just hang out without doubting "Does he like me?" Do I look nice? Did i say the right thing? Was that a turn on or a turn off? etc...
I think different parts of my life can be told or related to in songs...melodies. Melodies, piano songs without any lyrics can say so much more than what the heart can understand.
Whoa! My love, my darling,
I hunger for your touch,
Alone. Lonely time.
And time goes by, so slowly,
And time can do so much,
Are you still mine?
I need your love.
I need your love.
God speed your love to me.
Lonely rivers flow to the sea, to the sea,
To the open arms of the sea.
Lonely rivers sigh, wait for me, wait for me,
I'll be coming home, wait for me.
Am I thinking of someone special on this Friday night? Yes.. perhaps.. I'm sitting in the dark with a flashlight. It's raining outside. It's 9:30pm Friday night. My parents are in bed sleeping and snoring. And I am here in the dark writing on my blog. Writing my thoughts. Listening to sappy love songs. Wishing instead that I was out dancing the night away. Listening to music so loud that I can't even hear my thoughts. Making a fool of myself on the dance floor.
But I'm here...in bed, being told to go to sleep at 9:40pm on a Friday night after a stressful week. I'm listening to Unchained Melody imagining that someone is dedicating it to me.
Imagining that any moment now a friend or someone might pick up the phone and call my celphone and say "I just wanted to hear your voice. Let's talk about everything and nothing at all."
Till next time.
Love
D.C.
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